thought of the day #12

why won't this leave me alone? nothing ever changes, i just go in cycles. where are you in this God? i want to stop hurting over these things, once and for all. i'm close to yelling at sky, screaming curses at you. i want to know why i can't let it go, when i'm trying so hard to. i choose time and time again to leave this before you, but when i walk away the burden is back again. how do i cope with this, when i feel so terribly alone?

i know i should have hope.

and i know my hope is in you.

but how do i grasp that again?