thought of the day #68

your life is so much better without me. you're a much happier person and your parents are happy with you and who you're around and with. i'm so happy for you. i really am. honest. i'm letting you go, i promise. but tonight, i think i have the right to cry. because i just realized that my absence caused you joy. my absence was all that you needed. and that hurts. i miss everything that we could have been, everything that we can never be. and i don't want to cry. but it's what i need. maybe it will help. it was always something you enjoyed.