unwanted.

there are times in my life when i feel like i'm pretty cool and that people enjoy having me around. and then there are times like tonight. i feel like an afterthought. a meanwhile. a just-for-now. it's irrational and probably untrue. and i know it will pass. but right now, as selfish and narcissistic as it is, right now i would really like to be a first-thought. a right now. a forever. i want to feel important.