i have hope_

it's my new catch-phrase, because "i'm not interesting" got old.

hope is such a strong emotion. the other day i told my friend that "hope means nothing" because it can't change anything. i've changed my mind. hope can change everything. if i have hope, even the slightest inclination that there's a light at the end of the tunnel, i will hold on. giving up isn't an option or even a valid thought when i have a hope to hold to.
people have different kinds of hope. they hold onto the hope of getting away from their home. the hope that they can make a difference in the world. a hope that they will succeed. the hope that they will fall in love. and i have hope that everything will be okay someday. but hope is so very risky. you can lay everything on the line just to have things fall through. to hope you cannot be afraid to fail, or to get hurt. those things are a part of the world turning. it's the natural state of things. everything going from order to disorder and such (thanks newton). false hope, believing in something so strongly and having it fall through, is so hard.

but without hope, we are nothing. i am nothing at least.
and my hope rests in a unearthly strength.
i have hope. and i will continue to have hope.

have heart my dear, you're bound to be afraid.-snow patrol.