i remember.

stargazing on a beach. dreaming until the future no longer scared me. the sky was the limit. crying because you cried. late talks and early sunsets that we never managed to see. i remember art bleeding into our day to day lives. i'd take breaks from school for hours because i had to write. i just had to or i'd explode. i remember phone calls. kisses to the cheek and simple things like that. notes left to remind me that i matter. i never managed to adequately show you how i felt in return. i'm just so bad with words, you see. i remember photographs and where they were taken. the surroundings in them clear and vivid. silly jokes. hugs. guacamole. creating. texting for hours. sharing everything. i remember when things were so different. i remember walking and talking and laughing and crying and loving. i remember your back as you walked away. and telling myself over and over again "i will forget you." and never forgetting, not even for a second.