untitled.

what is my life even about? god, it's like every time i feel like i have something going for me, it's gone. will i ever belong again? will i ever be someone's whole world? and i know it's wrong to want that but i just need to know for a brief moment that i am important. that i matter. that no one's going to replace me. because i'm always replaced. always. consistently. sometimes i just don't want to try anymore. i'm so exhausted. i feel lost. i feel dissociated and unappreciated and shattered and i have nothing left to give.