defenseless.

this is what happens when i let my guard down for even a second. i was so emotionally unprepared for all that has happened in just these two days. sometimes i don't even know who is on my side. and should i even have a side? this life isn't a game or a war, is it? i've been abandoned, i've been neglected, i've been hurt. if life were a game, it would be more fair. if life were a war, there would be a victor.

this is what it's like being defenseless. and i don't much care for it.