thought of the day #26

this is what i wanted, what i never thought i would get. but not like this. i don't want to step on anyone's toes. i don't want to hurt anyone i don't have to. so how do i go about handling this? it's so delicate and fragile. at least to me it is. it makes me nervous how easily i could screw up and lose everyone. no, not nervous.

terrified. i'm absolutely terrified.