absence.

i feel your absence profoundly today. it's in the drive down my hill in the sunshine and the empty silences i fill with movie dialogue. i remember laughing, i remember my bare feet hitting wet asphalt. i remember your kiss pressed to my forehead as i fall asleep and you lie awake. notes on your chalkboard. reading in the aisles of the book store. holding you close as you cry your eyes out.

i hold onto these things, because they make me happy. to remember us in our glory days. this is all that i have left of you, this and a promise to always be there. but i feel your absence. i feel your absence and it breaks me.