disappointed.

the title refers to my disappointment in myself rather than any disappointment with anyone else. the blame is almost entirely mine because i cannot manage the smallest of tasks. i am the middle-man, as always. caught between two conflicting promises and i can't handle stuff like this. disappointing people. i feel like i'm trying to climb a cliff and i keep slipping back down again. that analogy doesn't even work, but analogies be damned, it's how i feel. i feel like such a disappointment. feel like i always will be.